Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Power Outage = Retardation

Friday night our power went out for like four hours. That's hell for me. I can do nothing--have to use a flashlight to even read.

I'm the kind of guy who needs 900 things available to me at any time so when I get bored of one I move on. I absolutely CANNOT stand boredom.

Anyway, power came back on, life resumed.

Saturday night Zig and I watched an indy movie and like 5 minutes later the power went out. It stayed out from 7:30pm - 1:30am.

I was so absolutely bored that I plugged my laptop and my portable dvd player into the car so I could use them. I was also so bored that I bought a new game for my Verizon phone: VZW Chess.

I used to be VERY good at chess. Self taught, but those who know me and how I think(read: 20 moves ahead always) won't find that hard to believe. But I haven't played in like 10 years.

So I boot up the game and leave it at Beginner level figuring: I am SO going to spank this computer.

And basically the computer ass-raped me. It wasn't even close.

I thought: I'm a little rusty. I'll do better on the next one.

Nope. Same result. I thought: Okay, enough playing. I'm gonna think like five moves ahead.

And it was close. I checked him a couple of times and got him down to his King, two Rooks, and four pawns to my King, two rooks, three pawns, and I had better positioning.

But he still won. So if that's beginner, I must have simply gotten retarded. I know five moves ahead's not incredibly advanced but it's way more than beginners use.

Gonna have to get back in practice. Not that I WANT the power to go back out though...

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

The Abyss Beckons

Okay. I'm in a dark place right now. Not literally, but mentally.

Those who know me may be thinking, "Why?" And it really does show that everything is a matter of perception.

My premiere went well. There was between 350-400 people. We got some good press. People geniunely seemed to love the sequel.

But for me, still a partial failure. Even with all those people the theater cost more than I made in ticket sales. That's a very bad thing right now, as I've sunk all my money plus some into FOC2. I can't afford to go any more into debt.

And you have to understand; I am a deeply cynical and pessimistic person. I really am. I had the thought a while back that if I was Steven Spielberg you know what I'd be thinking right now?

Not "Wow, look at all the great films I've made and the millions of filmmakers I've influenced with my style."

I'd be thinking, "Why did I have to go and make Hook?"

Believe me, this is not how I want to be. I don't know why I think like this. Perhaps the opposite of "Ignorance is bliss" is true.

Regardless, I stand now on the brink of a giant decision. I feel like I did just before I shot "Hunting Humans". I was terrified. I was a twenty-six year old writer with minimal training in actually SHOOTING film. I had $11,000 saved, and a credit card with a $4000 limit. I had an amateur actor buddy who I thought was pretty good, but no other real actors that I had confidence in. I had hired a director of photography that I'd only talked to once; his reel looked good though, but who makes a reel with crappy footage?

There was this point where I thought--if I take this chance and fail, where will I stand? What will I have? No place to live, no money, and another failure on my list of failures.

But I jumped off the cliff on that one, and came up okay. Here I am again.

FOC2 doesn't have a distributor. Lionsgate wants it, sure. A couple of other companies have also contacted me. But I can almost guarantee none of them will pay me what I want for it.

What appears to happen is that the distributor makes all the money on the movie and throws scraps to the actual filmmaker. So for the past year I have been doing pretty extensive research into what it would take to become a distributor.

It's expensive. It's time-consuming. It's risky.

But if it pays off, it pays off BIG. So I'm sending out a screener of FOC2 to my rep tomorrow but I'm standing at the brink of simply going ahead with the plan to distribute and get the movie into Blockbuster/HV/Netflix/Amazon/Best Buy/etc on my own.

Scary scary stuff though.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Slacker slacker

Yeah, been slacking on the blog of late. Been INSANELY busy.

Got the big premiere this week so I'll be non-stop working to make sure it goes off with no problem. Next week I'll hopefully get back to a more regular thing. Hopefully.

Saturday, August 04, 2007